WHEN LIFE GETS HARD, JUST FCUK IT

mac.

2010-06-17T11:35:00.001-07:00

i don't know how to use mac :( its freaking complicated... how i wish there's a mac for dummies with me wright now!!

thats the way i am

2010-03-18T08:50:00.000-07:00

Do you know how it feels like to be short of breath
When one prays to God to gift him the death

I’ll tell you what been an Asthmatic is like
Feeling little tubes in chest growing tight

Leaving you suffocating with loads on chest
Counting the breath until it comes to rest

Things fun for others acts as stimulus for me
Making me dull with cough, sneeze and wheeze

Being allergic to one thing or the other
A reason why I can’t live a life normal

Sometimes it’s a less trouble for me to live with
Other times its really a pain to be called living

The awfulness makes me think am about to die
There’s nothing that can help but to cry

I turn blue, chest in pain, myself unconscious
Threatening my life to get respiratory arrest

Feet cold, numbness in limb, palms begin to sweat
But most miserable is the burden I feel on chest

I get dizzy, and the head spins so fast
The voices I feel like coming to from far

The body feels feeble and the vision starts to blurs
The asthma leaves all my senses completely shut

I feel like being tied and locked in a small case
The air around is never enough for me to inhale

It may get so bad that I get admitted for days
Surviving with oxygen mask and family’s prays

Have to take pills and nebulizer twice a day
For just a breath, there’s a heavy price I pay

And when it’s all over, the breath is at peace
All my energy is drained, am left so weak

It is a suffering that can’t be fully cured
I have to take measures to keep it controlled

Have to stay away from things I quite adore
Flowers in garden, monsoon season, my pets at home

I can't stand the pity looks some people hold for me
Yet others make me laugh, they think Asthma is Sexy

To be an asthmatic is not fancy or a fun
I wouldn’t wish this problem for anyone

P/S : From last FRIDAY till TODAY u haunt me. EFFF UUUU ASTHMAA ;)

mara bahaya.

2010-02-09T08:39:00.000-08:00

Last Friday or should i say early saturday, me and my buddies went to play futsal at HTO(near mydin USJ). After done with our futsal, on the way back, im driving my friends car using the first lane from the right on the road from summit towards sunway, while driving around 50-60km per hour , out of sudden this mercadese B170 on the 2nd lane turn right without giving any signals. I still remember, the words that came out from my mouth was "WTF" . I try to break, and honk but its useless, the MERS was too near, then BANG.. i hit the car on the driver seat.

After that, i looked at the mers driver, its a lady.. YES a lady, not only that she didnt give any signal to turn and also on the phone. When i asked her to turn away her car(because we land on the middle of the road) she act dumb and still on the phone. MY GOD, this is my first experience in car accident. The car i drove (avanza) bumper , head lamp , arm spoil but the mers only got a scratch and a little kemek.!!! damn unlucky that time, at the same time , my friend kena saman for having his driving license expired and after 2 hours after that, another of my friend went into accident hitting a police car...

LOL damn unlucky for all of us. So back to my story, then i went to make police report and went to see the inspector. According to the inspector it was my fault the accident happend because im driving in the wrong lane -_- " /SWT.. damn unlucky.. OH WELL, i learn my lesson well lah, the phrase "MAY DRIVING AT THE WRONG SIDE OF THE ROAD LEAD U TO THE WRIGHT PATH" were never true

jauh ku meluncur jauh, semakin jauh, kanan kiriku tiada, hanya didepanku, Laju ku laju dan tuju kan ku tuju , hujung garis ku tawan terhitam putihlah jajahku,
Project EAR - marabahaya REMiX

post #1

2010-01-26T08:51:00.000-08:00

I'm not in love,
It's just a faze that i'm going through,
I'm always looking for something new,
Don't go running away,
Oh i'm not in love,
I try to tell myself all the time,
I think i'm too young.

enrique iglesias - im not in love lyrics

empty.

2009-12-29T12:32:00.000-08:00

New year is coming. Everyone getting all excited about the celebration.But on my side im feeling a little down (u know sometimes u feel down and etc) i wonder why, hurmm i guess my TIME is up, i should find the missing puzzle in my life...

As much as i hate to admit it i still have to face the fact that maybe because i need SOMEONE in life.. could the reason for being down is because im LONELY ?

DAMN!!!

conneXion!

2009-12-12T11:14:00.001-08:00

"lets just cut the link"

Biri²PETAK!

2009-11-17T08:49:00.000-08:00

ITS FINALLY ARRIVE.. after planning for about 8 month the event is finally here.. SquareSHEEP is a company name that consist of 8 people. Basically the company selling square food that located at Taylors College School Of Hospitality and Tourism. The menu's are :

Lamb bolognaise Lasagne
Risoles
WaFFLE
Curry Lasagne
Tiramisu
Fruit SPizzz (beverage)

Chicken Cubes

THE POSHTER

THE T-SHIRT

I`ll update soon on the FOOD picture :) OH and please DO support us

update for the SOUL

2009-11-11T03:37:00.000-08:00

Some people tend to missunderstood when somebody else offer them suggggestion that related to their problem. unintentionly, they got caught in the problem. PLEASE don't misunderstood that they have no other intention just to help as a FRIEND. Do not delevope any feelings for them just because they offer you suggestion rite? NOT to say that they dont like you nor HAAATE you, its just that they think its better for them to be just friends.

We accidently creat new enemy because of the stupid misunderstanding due to giving SUGGESTION to others. Trust me they dont want to involve in this, all they want is just to help their friends and hope everything will be fine in the end. I really HOPE that it end soon, its BOTHERING me my FRIEND. Trust me.

P/S : sorry to keep others wondering what happend or confuse. One fine day ill explain k :)

college moment

2009-06-21T08:26:00.000-07:00

Sooo here we are at the HOLIDAY weekkk... bored , damn bored .. So i decide to blog about some quick recap of term4 , the first day of college felt nothing different except some new faces, but class ? still the same old group 2 i guess. But this term is abit different from others. Early of the term there's some issues coming out because of "CHANGGING CLASS DUE TO RACES" problems.

Soon after that all of us busy with assigments , waste not want not project , and SOME issue's . But no matter what issue's coming out it will not seperate us apart i guess(thanks to pool and foosball) . 2nd to know , its already been pass 3 month we're gone through. Time sure pass damn fast, after this all of us going for training. 3 more months not going to see each others. So basically thats about it , nothing much to say because the rest are just the same as normall terms goes :D

(CLASS)

(waste not want not cameron trip)

Oh well, sometimes shit happend in our life. But no matter how shitty it is, the good things never miss to come too :)

SEE U GUYS IN 3 months TIME....

Beautifull things !

2009-06-07T12:29:00.000-07:00

Something to release everyone from everyday stress.. or should i say UNWANTED SITUATION enjoyyy..

[LYRICS]

Got up early, found something's missing
my only name.
No one else sees but I got stuck,
and soon forever came.
Stopped pushing on for just a second,
then nothing's changed.
Who am I this time, where's my name
I guess it crept away.

No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
What's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
Just let it go, what now can never be.

I forgot that I might see,
So many beautful things.
I forgot that I might need,
to find out what life could bring.

Take this happy ending away, it's all the same.
God won't waste this simplicity on possibility.
Get me up, wake me up, dreams are filling
this trace of blame.
Frozen still I thought I could stop,
now who's gonna wait.

No one's calling for me at the door.
and unpredictable won't bother anymore.
and silently gets harder to ignore.
look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
what's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
just let it go, what now can never be.

so many beautiful things...
so many beautiful things...

Now what do I do
can I change my mind
did I think things through

It was once my life
it was my life at one time

Dont just judge it from the music , try understand to the lyrics :)

politics.

2009-06-03T10:48:00.000-07:00

We often came across politics everyday in our life. Its just a matter wheather we notice it or not. Everywhere politics happend, in college , work place , school , even friends sorround us. When a certain things get worst , politics that are sorrunding us gets more obvious. Some choose to stay low and act like they're not in any side (but they are in 1) some choose to show it , some don't really care at all , and some don't really care (but they wanna know the story).

The juicy part only came when most of them in their own (politics) side but dont know the real story. They're just like JUDGING A BOOK BY ITS COVER, its quite funny how things happend and began with, from a simple things to complicated. Friends and family fight with each others because a simple things and all starts with politic.Why does people in this world wanted to be in politic? is it got to do with that maslow hierarchy thing ? well what ever it is its seperating people's apart and still.

Take alook at the outside politics they are seperating people apart no? friends , family , same race , same religion fighting because of something that dont really that damn important. Its funny how it turn this world upside down, but what can people like us do(those in naturel side)? We just enjoy the show and clap when it reach to the CLIMAX But yeah , i dont think so we can stop it no matter what we do, its just in our nature, SELF ESTEEM wright..blehh c'est la vie ..

Posting

2009-04-28T12:43:00.000-07:00

its been awhile since i've post something up...
the simple reason for it just

L
A
Z
Y

yerp plain LAZY... but i swear will post something very soon k

THE FINAL ADVERSE

2009-03-06T02:56:00.000-08:00

The countdown to the finals season, everyone is getting ready. Not to mention some are scared , while others are confident. Its the last ride before everyone parted their way. All the journey of happyness , sorrow within this 2 years are coming to an end. But before that lets us face the FINAL BATTLE togather. Let us all gear up and fight . Good luck everyone who taking their finals .

chaptre 1

2009-02-20T06:29:00.000-08:00

DC27 PRESENT , THE CHAPTRE 1 . A FOOD PROMOTION FOCOUSING ON FRENCH CUISINE.

thelastridetogather x)

wisdoom tooth.

2009-02-20T04:15:00.000-08:00

Few month's ago these wisdoom tooth pain attack me . At that time, i thought it was gonna be hell for me , and yes my prediction is true , it is HELL for me. I suffer it for like a week or two and it suddenly disappear, i THANK god for it has vanish in my lifeeee. But untill yesterday, i was going to sleep and as usuall, i was rolling on my bed hoping to sleep cause i have to woke up early but i can't sleep, i keep thinking the best reason for why i can't sleep but i didn't found it. Untill i notice that my jaw are killing me with this pain. I checked in the mirror and guess what ? YES there's a bruise at my jaw. I try to fight the pain and as usuall , i failed -.- " . I swear to god if i can cry , i would prolly cry but i guess im just another manKAN =p .

For those who don't know what WISDOOM TOOTH is :

well wisdom tooth is another name for pain in the ass.kthnxbye NAW i was just kiddin'
"Wisdom teeth" are a type of molar. Molars are the chewing teeth found furthest in the back of the mouth. Most humans have first, second, and third molars. A person's third molars are their wisdom teeth. These teeth come in behind the 2nd molars (if there is room for them and they are aligned properly), usually during a person's late teens or early twenties. Typically a person will have four wisdom teeth: upper left, upper right, lower left, and lower right.

What are "impacted wisdom teeth?"

In dental terminology an "impacted" tooth refers to a tooth that has failed to emerge fully into its expected position. This failure to erupt properly might occur because there is not enough room in the person's jaw to accommodate the tooth, or because the angulation of the tooth is improper.

there you go straight from the nett. And yes tomorrow i have to work for the food promo and on monday i have to go for the international buffet which i can't because i can't even eat... the only thing that i can eat is only porridge -_- " *sigh*
DEAR GOD THE ONLY THING I ASKED OF YOU IS TO TAKE AWAT THESE AWFULL PAIN, WHEN IM CRYING LIKE A RAIN . omgitrhyme. -.-

YOUTH 09

2009-01-08T09:39:00.000-08:00

what did you guys waiting for ? come and join the fun . ITS GONNA BE EPIC!!

karma

2009-01-08T02:23:00.000-08:00

For Hindus and Jains, karman (karma is the nominative Sanskrit form) originally referred to proper ritual actions, but the term has come to denote past actions that will affect what happens to a person in various hells or paradises after death and in the individual's particular rebirth or reincarnation. Literally, what one is now is the result of what one did in the past and what one is now contains seeds for the future. According to the Law of Karman, life is a series of deaths and rebirths determined by one's past actions. To achieve true liberation from the cycle of life, one must theoretically achieve total nonaction, total negation of karman. Buddhists also consider that a person's situation is determined by his or her karman, and that good karman can in some ways eliminate the results of bad karman.

Today as i was yum-cha ing with my friends, i came with this karma situation, not just me, but it involve 3 person, and the karma turning back to us at the same time. How wonderfull is that. From that moment , i see that karma can attack us in a good way or a bad way. Even things that we do for the past 10000 years also will come and hunt us back. There is no telling when it will strike us, but it will. I dont really believe in karma untill i came across that situation, WOW the power of karma really take deep impact on a person. People really DO learn something new everyday.

broken wings.

2009-01-05T07:24:00.000-08:00

Take these broken wings, I need your hands to come and heal me once again, So i can fly, Untill the end of time, if a angels comes down, take me away, memories of me, and the things i always did,

NEW YEAR 2009

2009-01-04T11:42:00.001-08:00

Time flies by so fast without we noticing it, its already 2oo9. All the tears and joy we buried deep down, as it would be our road of journey in life. It really suprise me when i notice im in term6 in my course, that means im in the final term. All the fun and sad as we walk through the road of studying the course we love( well some of us). It feels like yesterday i know all of u. Seriously, i still remember the day when we we're set into group, i was alone and not knowing anyone, andy , jimmy , and vincent approch me and intro them self while vincent taking our group number and email hahah. Soon to know, our group plan to watch cinema togather at pyramid. Oh well , 2009 is here , i guess byebye 2008, im sure there will be whole lots of suprises that waiting us this year. Till then , adios ;)

G.H.E.T.T.O

2008-12-07T04:04:00.000-08:00

Its strange how song can wake u up. I mean not wake up from sleep , wake up and think . It really open my eyes when i read the lyrics of these song. Nevertheless, its akon who sing it. Looks like some one have been shine by the light from above =p

"Ghetto"

Ghetto, Ghetto, Ghetto, Ghetto livin

[Verse one]

These streets remind me of quicksand (quicksand)
When your on it you'll keep goin down (goin down)
And there's noone to hold on too
And there's noone to pull you out
You keep on fallin (falling)
And noone can here you callin
So you end up self destructing
On the corner with the tuli on the waist line just got outta the bing doin state time
Teeth marks on my back from the canine
Dark Memories of when there was no sunshine
Cause they said that I wouldn't make it
(I remember like yesterday)
Holdin on to what god gave me

[Chorus]

Cause thats the life when ur
Living in the (ghetto)and
Eating in the (ghetto)or
Sleeping in the (ghetto) (ghetto)
Cause thats the life when ur
Living in the (ghetto)and
Eating in the (ghetto)or
Sleeping in the (ghetto, ghetto, ghetto)

[Verse two]

No need to cherish luxuries (cause everythin' come and go)
Even the life that you have is borrowed
(Cause your not promised tomorrow)
So live your life as if everydays' gon be your last
Once you move forward can't go back
Best prepare to remove your past

Cause ya gotta be willin to pray
Yea There gotta be (there gotta be) a better way oh
Yea ya gotta be willing to pray
Cause there gotta be (there gotta be) a better day (ay)

Whoever said that this struggle would stop today
A lot of niggas dead or locked away
Teenage Women growing up with aids

[Chorus]

Cause thats the life when your
Living in the (ghetto) oh
Eating in the (ghetto) or
Sleeping in the (ghetto, ghetto)
Thats the life when ur
Living in the (ghetto)oh
Eating in the (ghetto) or
Sleeping in the (ghetto, ghetto, ghetto)

[Bridge]

Gun shots every night in the (ghetto)
Crooked cops on sight in the (ghetto)
Every day is a fight in the (ghetto)
(oh oh oh oh oh) (ghetto)
Got kids to feed in the (ghetto)
Selling coke and weed in the (ghetto)
Every day somebody bleed in the (ghetto)
(oh oh oh oh oh) (ghetto)

[Chorus]

Thats the life when your
Living in the (ghetto)oh
Living by the (ghetto)oh
Eating in the (ghetto, ghetto)
Thats the life when your
Living in the (ghetto)oh
Sleeping in the (ghetto)
Living in the (ghetto, ghetto, ghetto)

(wooohhoohh)

confusion ?

2008-11-04T09:42:00.000-08:00

You know , as we get older we tend to change our attitude , food , style , and much more. Same goes to music and all sorts of entertaiment as well. We change start from listening to Barnie and friends to some rock and roll or rnb or whatever uptodate song kindda thing.We start to be more COOLER weather we notice it or not infront of girls. In other word we start to have ego.

Its not wrong to have this changes in our life, but as things go on it reminds us of things that we love to do when we were still kids.Yes those memories wont be erase in our michine in our brain no doubt about it.Thats good as we tend not to forget in our CHILDHOOD days.

In certain case, it is strange how someone can be very much MATURE tend to how should i say ? RECALL theirs childhood days maybe ? its about 2 friends of mine . 1 is a COOL dude and 1 has a disturbing image of having 1 nite stand in the jungle ? :P So both of them went to watch HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3 . And just the 2 of them only.

I was freaking SHOCK when i heard that story, 2 person out of 17 class mates watch high school musical3 ? its like a teenager still watching sesame street or powderpuff girls or whatever... * HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA *but yeah its not wrong to recall our CHILDHOOD days wright ? :P oh well , HIDUP INI MACAM PALAT , TAPI ESOK MASIH ADA.

P/S : i also watch some of the KIDS movie , but lets just pray i watch it with FRIENDS and i mean more then 2-3 person ok .

she is the question ??

2008-10-28T08:02:00.000-07:00

Have you ever noticed,
That I’m not acting as I used to do before?
What have you done to me,
I’ll never be the same I'll tell you for sure
You really are my ecstasy....
Not that I’m complaining,
The most beautiful angel I have never seen
If you don’t mind me saying,
A lifelong ambition to fulfill my dream...
You really are my ECSTASYYYYYYYYYYY

update.

2008-10-21T08:45:00.001-07:00

So i`ve just update my theme. nothing much. just to show people that im still ALIVE kthnxbye

changes

2008-09-18T13:50:00.000-07:00

Today me and my old friends we're lepaking togather. Its been awhile since we lepak and talk about "THOSE DAYS" storys. IT was fun you know, sharing those story's from ur a SMALL ONES to BIG ONES . And while we're talking , one of my friends said that "time will change people".And i was thinking to myself? does time really change me ? i mean after all these years do i changed ? After all those stupid and NON stupid stuff i did does it change me ? If time really change people then, am i ready to change ? am i gonna change all those stuff i use to believe and pretend it never happend ? im not emoing just doubting... well , ARE YOU READY TO CHANGE ?

miss.

2008-09-05T14:04:00.000-07:00

well ever wonder when u working with some people in a group for quite some times and after that u left the team and hope that life will go on and fun, but untill 1 day u feel like missing them. YEAH i miss them. LOL i miss people at friday's alot . Haha maybe 2-3 years from now i`ll be missing them at taylors too :P

nothing.

2008-08-05T11:10:00.000-07:00

ifeel like posting .............................

THE MAINCOURSE

2008-07-22T10:39:00.000-07:00

So today i`ve been moved to a new station. Usually i was in EXPO and in expo you only do the prep and maybe setting the last touch for the meal and dessert. Now that i`ve move to sautee i can cook more things and less prep :P ok enough of the crapppss. Today the first meal that i`ve cook is THE SIZZLING CHICKEN AND CHEESE . I dont know how it taste like but , theres no complain either. SO ? it must be GOOD :P

TALK ABOUT SEX ?

2008-07-15T11:29:00.000-07:00

i found this shit in youtube and YEAH it STUNT me like a lightning strike on my heart. my FUCKING MIND was stopped. i mean HELL YEAH alot of guys love sex (no kidding) but if their partner is this girl? its gonna be some SERIOUS SHIT !! I guess you guys should watch this.

WORLD GAMEMASTER TOURNAMENT

2008-07-11T02:37:00.000-07:00

The WORLD GAMEMASTER TOURNAMENT is back in malaysia. If im not mistaken its the 2nd WGT tournament held in malaysia. The first WGT was held last year at One Utama shopping center. In THE STAR news paper, ASUS has just BLAST all the gamers with an advertisment of WGT 2008 malaysia final which featured the dates and venue.

As you can see from the image above, the official game for WGT2008 Malaysia is COUNTERSTRIKE , FIFA08 , WARCRAFT 3 / DOTA , and NFS PROSTREET.
Below are the date and the venue of this tournament :

Date : 29th Oct - 2nd Nov

Venue : Midvalley Centre Court

So GAMERS gear up and keep ya finger cross for this EXCITING event. Although the official confirmation is not yet available =)

period pain attax !

2008-07-08T06:00:00.000-07:00

Its the 7th day of my training and this feelings come to me again. I called it PERIOD PAIN feelings. It's a feeling that makes u feel FUCKUP in the things that you`r doing now. Seriosuly, it suddenly came to me like a HARPOON MISSILE strike the enemy without noticing it. Everything went smoothly untill my coach called me and aaron to help him with the RECIEVING ITEM i mean WTF ? isn't that a BANGLA's work ? So me and aaron SUKARELAPAKSA (willingly force) to do.

We end our shift at 6.30 p.m . I'm walking home since i`m not driving to work, my leg's still hurting me. While walking home suddenly im thinking about this course im thinking. Am i really interested in cooking ? Why do i take this course in the first place ? Can i really cook ? Why is this course important to me ? why the HELL it mean so much to me ? Can i stop now ? is it too late to stop now ? 1001 and things came into my mind.

Well im not emo or something. Its just that im confuse in what im gonna do with my life now. OH WELL ! C'EST LA VIE

This feelings ?!

2008-07-04T06:09:00.000-07:00

This feelings come again. After for a quite some times i didnt feel it and now it came back to me. The lazyness , The joy , The pain , The tears all come at the same time at the same momment.And i`ll prolly face the momment for quite some times. Working in the kitchen its not easy as it look like in the tv. Its 70% more worst. I still remember, last time when i use to watch kitchen shows, it seem easy and fun. Never the less people in the tv was smiling. But in real life actually kitchen is something like hell. At first everyone laughing togather and the next thing u know everyone start scriming and scolding each other.And the PAIN that attack ur legs. Sometimes i wonder how does people that have this PASSION of cooking can come to work even know they're sick or something. It really amaze me , but i dont think so this field is for me. I try to think back in such case that made me do it even if im sick is just drawing.I LOVE TO ARTSSS!! anyway i just crapping around.

beyond expectation*

2008-06-27T13:10:00.001-07:00

After soo long, i now found the music that i'm searching . u guys sure know about the song called here in my home from malaysian various artist... i must says they did a good job . After all these years finally they have shown to others that they can sing english song well (c'est magnifique)... and YEAH the song ROCKXX , It is BEYOND most of our EXPECTATIONS that malaysian artist can sing like this .WELL DONE MATE , and GOOD JOB . keep it up .

new,new,new

2008-06-27T13:10:00.000-07:00

so i`ve change BACK to blogspot . dayum ! i love blogspott!!! :P